Lol.. I kno ryt ...weird title .. But seriously I need some pushing.. I need to have a target ..I'm jst der.. My thesis is callin for me...begging me to do sumthin about it.. I've tried.. U kno how the hardest part is starting.. Yea..starting is alwayz the hardest part for me .. Once I start , I dnt stop.. I'll b on top on my game.. Constantly.... But b4 I start.. Lol.. it takes foreva.. So now I've decided I need pushing..sumthin to scare me..lol.. That works a lot for me..n its very good @ making me start sumthin I've wasted so much tym on..
Nyz that's 1 part of my lyf..so I saw sex n the city 2 .. On sat ..gosh.. It was so looooong... N d movie was lyk an advert for abu dhabi.. So now I want to go to abu dhabi.. U'll notice I used the word "want" .. Lol..that's bcuz..a want is nuthin but a mere desire.. I have no money..that's y when I watch movies lyk that I've seen abu dhabi .. Wiv my £5 sumthin ticket, I can visit a lot of places.. Lol.. Seriously.. It would b nice..mayb I should start saving.. I dnt have to stay in a 5 or 7 star hotel.. It would b boring jor who would I go with...hmmm..nobody.. Hiss.. Everybody is @ work..:( .. Mayb wen I get a boo.. We will go togeda.. Hmm..noiceeee!!!!
Lol.. Yup yup..back to d boy issue sef.. I think I've been saying no to so many pple these days ..I feel sad.. Mayb I should say yes..but dere r sumthings I would say no 2.. Example.. Mr Phd.. Wantd me to go swimming with him.. Lol.. Said no straight away.. Who goes swimming wiv a boy who is nt ur bf n who u've had previous exp wiv.. Lol.. Def nt " urs truly".. I'm nt that stupid.. Silly boy.. N its even indoors.. Hiss.."Smh".. But a few dinners n movies wuldnt b bad..as long as I'm picking the resturants n movies n all he is doin is paying..that's good enuf.. No drinks tho.. Yup.. I dnt go out to " have drinks" nemore...
I really am proud of myslf..sems lyk I'm becoming me again.. :) .. I was lost for a bit..lol..now.. Bonnie is back.. Lol.. Nyz , so we r having a bbq on fri n guess who the dj is...ME!!!! Yup yup..I'm excited ..I like goin for house parties n I'm d dj.. It means.. I dnt have to dance with ne boy who is almost drunk or working his way to being drunk.. And I get to play wat eva music I want to listen to.. How cool is tha..
Nyz.. Pple.. Its goin down lyf this friday @ leodis..lolz.. that's jst me being razz..
But its gonna b fun, let's pray for sunshine tho.. Nyz, since I have no classes or exams nemore.. I'm gonna b writing a lot so get ready.. U would not b'live how comfy blogging frm a blackberry is.. I can keep on writing foreva .. :)
Omobonike ♥ ♡
#np... Still only me-2face.. Told u I'm in love with that song :p ..
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Monday, 31 May 2010
Friday, 28 May 2010
Only me
Gosh !!! I'm in love with that song plus the video.. I think 2face did really good n I really would buy that album for 1000 if I was in naija..I'm done wiv exams ..yay!!! Scream/shout/laugh/smile n den yea Cry.. Yea..that's exactly wat happnd to me.. I'm sad n I dnt kno y..kk . Lemme stop lying I kno y..but d thing is that its nt jst 1 thing.. So many things.. Life is jst..arrgh!!!
Yest was children's day.. I thought so much about my childhood ..I was a really quiet child ..sumtyms my mum can't get ova the fact that I'm so stubborn now cuz I used to be very obedient ..lol..nt that I'm nt..I jst tell pple my opinion.. Dnt think its such a good idea tho..but I still do..n it gets on a lot of pple's nerves..but wth, who cares. If u dnt lyk it, go n hug an electric pole or jump into the lagoon.. Suit urslf..lol..that was totally off point..
Nyz, I wish I was back in pry sch..when I couldn't even b botherd if I came 1st or last..yea blive me dat was the last thing on my mind.. My parents were seperated by then wiv my mum doin wat my mum n dad should have been doing together..lol..n u would think I wuld have been serious.. Sadly I wasn't.. Nyz..it was still nice tho.. Alwyz knowing my mum could solve all my problems .. All I had to do was ask..
Thot about it for a while then I decided I'd rather b here.. I'm almost 22 .. Secondary sch takes so long.. Dunno y.. I'd rather b here than have to do that whole experience again..I spoke to my frnd today..its her b'day n she is 20..gosh , I feel so old.. N now I think a lot is expected frm me..dunno y.... I need my mummy.. As weird as that sounds ..all I wanna do is have one of those talks wiv my mum in her room..where we jst tlk till we both fall asleep..she alwyz jst knows..I hate making decisions..I've made a few..sum bad, sum good.. I've learnt from the bad ones tho..
I'm goin to watch sex n the city 2 2mrw :) .. So happy..atlst it would get me out of this stupid mood I'm in.. I'm being such an ass to everybody..I'm neva in this mood for a long tym y is this one taking so much tym to go..I need to find sumthin/ sum1 to get me out of it.. :(..hmm..
Nyz, I'm goin to sleep :)..yup, I'm living the good lyf.. Its jst 21:44..ha ha.. :)..l8r..
Omobonike ♥ ♡ ..xxxx
#np. Only me: 2 face
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Saturday, 15 May 2010
The phone call
Its 2 am n I'm still awake.. Was gonna read till 6 this morning but sumthin jst happend.. While I was reading for my exams .. I c my fone beep "unknown no" n I thot in my head.. Dis stanley boy ( my classmate).. Y is he alwyz callin me wiv unknown number ,.. So I pick I it up..only for me to hear a girl cursing me n telling me to leave her bf alone... Imagine me.. Lol..I was so shocked..its neva happnd to me in my entire lyf... I was tongue tied for about 10 seconds..yea, I was that shocked..d nxt question I ask is who is ur man.. She dsnt say..4he keeps on chattin away..n den drops...
First of all..
I have no clue about the boy dis girl is tlkin bout n she was stupid enuf nt to say the name of the boy I'm suppose to b staying away from..
I'm upset, really really upset..I'm nt that kind of girl.. N I really do feel sorry for the girl..d stupid boy who is driving her crazy.. Or atlst crazy enough to do that.. Its kind of nice tho..that sum1 thinks I'm hot enough to b considered as a threat..thumbs up for me :D ..
Nyz, it wasn't as funny as I now think it is yest.. I was so upset.. Even more upset cuz I have no clue n no options to even guess .. :(..
This year hasn't been so great for me..frm one wahala to the nxt.. I need to get closer to God o.. I've been slacking these days..
I'm goin to sleep ..I need to forget that this eva happened..
Omobonike ♥ ♡ ..xxx
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First of all..
I have no clue about the boy dis girl is tlkin bout n she was stupid enuf nt to say the name of the boy I'm suppose to b staying away from..
I'm upset, really really upset..I'm nt that kind of girl.. N I really do feel sorry for the girl..d stupid boy who is driving her crazy.. Or atlst crazy enough to do that.. Its kind of nice tho..that sum1 thinks I'm hot enough to b considered as a threat..thumbs up for me :D ..
Nyz, it wasn't as funny as I now think it is yest.. I was so upset.. Even more upset cuz I have no clue n no options to even guess .. :(..
This year hasn't been so great for me..frm one wahala to the nxt.. I need to get closer to God o.. I've been slacking these days..
I'm goin to sleep ..I need to forget that this eva happened..
Omobonike ♥ ♡ ..xxx
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Tuesday, 11 May 2010
being sane
I'm losing it..SERIOUSLY...
its hard u kno, as much as I promised this blog wasnt going to be soapy..I really need to clear my head... too many thots ..I think its gonna burst ;).. I recently made some really bad choices .. really sad ones too.. I've learnt alot from my misdeeds..I know I cant take back what I've done and I'm not trying to...I believe in karma and accept the whole " whateva u sow, u must reap" the big question that I ask myslf everyday is "how do I move on".... I'm trying so hard to do that ..mayb thats y its not happening.. cuz, im puttin too much into it.. yea, ive tried not puttin so much into it also..but somethin sumwhere is wrong...really wrong..Ive read my bible, n sum voice in my head keeps telling me everything is gonna be fine...n I believe that except that its taking such a long time..Another voice in my head goes" oh, wat if it just wasnt meant to be".. yea, I also believe that wateva belongs to me..will alwyz b there for me..n for sum stupid reason , i think im special in a way.. cuz, I'm not the best person u'll eva met. i have so many faults its unbelivable.. yet God is alwyz there for me..waiting for me, tlking to me and telling me its gonna b alryt... and i still worry..*smh*
I try honestly, i do try.. part of me is nt willing to let go..honestly sumtyms all i want to do is cut that part of me n tell it to ' take a walk'... i really can do without it rite now.. i have so much to do..n this thots keep filling my head its annoying.. worse part.. an important person in my life isnt talkin to me.. im angry @ him,... i guess he is also upset :( .. i really wish i had him to talk to..he cant solve my problems but he makes me laugh like crazy..I really do miss u " charlie"... i wish we could end our stupid fight..u'll kno wat to say to make me :)..
honestly...I need to kno what to do..I feel stuck u know.. n honestly i dunno wat is wrong wiv me....lol..i feel alot much better already ... n i hadnt even gttn to half of what was on my mind...nyz, reality jst dawned on me once more that i have exams nxt wk and therefore i dnt have the luxury of writing on and on about my life..so l8r..n if nething new n important comes up in my life, i'll let u kno...
omobonike...xx
its hard u kno, as much as I promised this blog wasnt going to be soapy..I really need to clear my head... too many thots ..I think its gonna burst ;).. I recently made some really bad choices .. really sad ones too.. I've learnt alot from my misdeeds..I know I cant take back what I've done and I'm not trying to...I believe in karma and accept the whole " whateva u sow, u must reap" the big question that I ask myslf everyday is "how do I move on".... I'm trying so hard to do that ..mayb thats y its not happening.. cuz, im puttin too much into it.. yea, ive tried not puttin so much into it also..but somethin sumwhere is wrong...really wrong..Ive read my bible, n sum voice in my head keeps telling me everything is gonna be fine...n I believe that except that its taking such a long time..Another voice in my head goes" oh, wat if it just wasnt meant to be".. yea, I also believe that wateva belongs to me..will alwyz b there for me..n for sum stupid reason , i think im special in a way.. cuz, I'm not the best person u'll eva met. i have so many faults its unbelivable.. yet God is alwyz there for me..waiting for me, tlking to me and telling me its gonna b alryt... and i still worry..*smh*
I try honestly, i do try.. part of me is nt willing to let go..honestly sumtyms all i want to do is cut that part of me n tell it to ' take a walk'... i really can do without it rite now.. i have so much to do..n this thots keep filling my head its annoying.. worse part.. an important person in my life isnt talkin to me.. im angry @ him,... i guess he is also upset :( .. i really wish i had him to talk to..he cant solve my problems but he makes me laugh like crazy..I really do miss u " charlie"... i wish we could end our stupid fight..u'll kno wat to say to make me :)..
honestly...I need to kno what to do..I feel stuck u know.. n honestly i dunno wat is wrong wiv me....lol..i feel alot much better already ... n i hadnt even gttn to half of what was on my mind...nyz, reality jst dawned on me once more that i have exams nxt wk and therefore i dnt have the luxury of writing on and on about my life..so l8r..n if nething new n important comes up in my life, i'll let u kno...
omobonike...xx
Monday, 10 May 2010
Defining me
I've oftened wondered what most people see when they look @ me.. Most times I fear that all they really see is a pretty face.. I've asked most of my really close boy friends..n dey all say the same thing "innocence"
I wonder y, I have that look.. I would never describe myself as an innocent person... Lol.. That's jst hilarious..
And then we start tlking..all of a sudden they dnt c a pretty face nemore..dey c a smart girl with a pretty face.. Blive me I dnt think I'm smart..but I guess I must b a bit smart to do wat I do.. I'm nt one of those peeps..that flip through a book..n den all d person does is go 2 d exam hall fill d answer booklet n ask for extra paper...Nope!!.. So not me..I wish tho..my lyf wuld b less stressful..
I'm one of the peeps that have to read n read.. So I start early.. Mayb that's y I get good grades.. Cuz I kno exactly what to do to pass my exams..
I got the greatest advice this year from my sister.. I was tlkin to her about exams n all.. N how I dnt have tym n all.. N den she goes.." Bonnie, cut everybody off n do wat u have to do" and that's exactly wat I'm goin to do.. So if u r one of those pple that I'm gonna have to cut off..I'm apologising even b4 I've started.. I love all my friends but.. I have to ace this masters..
When I look @ my mirror..I c me..plain old me..yea, a fyn girl ( I kno..I'm fyn).. But I want to b jst more than that.. I want to be a..... ( I'm nt goin to scare u).. So that part is censored ..lol.. Sorry..
Recently , sum1 made me feel really bad about myslf.. For a second..I felt really bad.. N I still do sumtyms..but I found a remedy..everytym I feel stupid and silly.. All I ever have to do, is look into the mirror n c myslf for who I really am..n nobody's opinion matters nemore..
Omobonike ♡ ♥ ..xxx
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I wonder y, I have that look.. I would never describe myself as an innocent person... Lol.. That's jst hilarious..
And then we start tlking..all of a sudden they dnt c a pretty face nemore..dey c a smart girl with a pretty face.. Blive me I dnt think I'm smart..but I guess I must b a bit smart to do wat I do.. I'm nt one of those peeps..that flip through a book..n den all d person does is go 2 d exam hall fill d answer booklet n ask for extra paper...Nope!!.. So not me..I wish tho..my lyf wuld b less stressful..
I'm one of the peeps that have to read n read.. So I start early.. Mayb that's y I get good grades.. Cuz I kno exactly what to do to pass my exams..
I got the greatest advice this year from my sister.. I was tlkin to her about exams n all.. N how I dnt have tym n all.. N den she goes.." Bonnie, cut everybody off n do wat u have to do" and that's exactly wat I'm goin to do.. So if u r one of those pple that I'm gonna have to cut off..I'm apologising even b4 I've started.. I love all my friends but.. I have to ace this masters..
When I look @ my mirror..I c me..plain old me..yea, a fyn girl ( I kno..I'm fyn).. But I want to b jst more than that.. I want to be a..... ( I'm nt goin to scare u).. So that part is censored ..lol.. Sorry..
Recently , sum1 made me feel really bad about myslf.. For a second..I felt really bad.. N I still do sumtyms..but I found a remedy..everytym I feel stupid and silly.. All I ever have to do, is look into the mirror n c myslf for who I really am..n nobody's opinion matters nemore..
Omobonike ♡ ♥ ..xxx
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Saturday, 8 May 2010
Nothin on you
Its been a really long week, I'm so fed up wiv sch .. I'll try to recap my week as much as possible or I can remember...
Loughborough .. Was good.. Saw jumi n all.. Very eventful.. But I ♥ Leeds mehn... Everywhere else is jst not it.. I love this song " nothin on u" - b.o.b.. I get d feelin dey where tlkin to me.. My dreams .. I kno.
Wsup wiv all these blogs I read.. Everybody is tlking about relationships and wat not.. I'm single .. Kini big deal!!.. N no I dnt need to go n wash my head in d stream..lol..I'm fine lyk dis..sum1 should pls make that point clear to my mother.. *smh*.. Cuz she dsnt get it... I've been refusing all d offers for drinks/movie/ dinner I've been getting these days..everything is jst boring..same old.. Dnt pple get tired.. Wanna go c ironman 2.. I should save myslf d stress n watch it online...mayb I'll go on sunday.. Give myslf a treat..its been a bit..
Online shopping has damaged my account.. As in.. Its nt so funny nemore...but still I got this lovely dress.. I look tew mad in it.. Jst so u kno its nt nething short n slutty..its decent..but its fitted..it wuld be nice to wear for a wedding.. Hmm...d needs of bonnie.... I'm confused. Stale gist.. I'm alwyz confused... But this tym a certain sum1 is confusing me and making remarks that I think are suppose to confuse me ..hmm.. :( ..I dunno jor.. Too many issues , jst me..
I'm really confused.. I need direction and answers to certain questions in my lyf...
Omobonike..xx
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Loughborough .. Was good.. Saw jumi n all.. Very eventful.. But I ♥ Leeds mehn... Everywhere else is jst not it.. I love this song " nothin on u" - b.o.b.. I get d feelin dey where tlkin to me.. My dreams .. I kno.
Wsup wiv all these blogs I read.. Everybody is tlking about relationships and wat not.. I'm single .. Kini big deal!!.. N no I dnt need to go n wash my head in d stream..lol..I'm fine lyk dis..sum1 should pls make that point clear to my mother.. *smh*.. Cuz she dsnt get it... I've been refusing all d offers for drinks/movie/ dinner I've been getting these days..everything is jst boring..same old.. Dnt pple get tired.. Wanna go c ironman 2.. I should save myslf d stress n watch it online...mayb I'll go on sunday.. Give myslf a treat..its been a bit..
Online shopping has damaged my account.. As in.. Its nt so funny nemore...but still I got this lovely dress.. I look tew mad in it.. Jst so u kno its nt nething short n slutty..its decent..but its fitted..it wuld be nice to wear for a wedding.. Hmm...d needs of bonnie.... I'm confused. Stale gist.. I'm alwyz confused... But this tym a certain sum1 is confusing me and making remarks that I think are suppose to confuse me ..hmm.. :( ..I dunno jor.. Too many issues , jst me..
I'm really confused.. I need direction and answers to certain questions in my lyf...
Omobonike..xx
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Saturday, 1 May 2010
Dear John
I watched a lovely movie today.. While I was suppose to b doing my work. Dear John.. I kno..I'm soapy lyk dat.. I cry when watching movies.. N dis movie I cried ..geez..love is such a beautiful thing.. :).. I kno its jst a movie but I lyk when things have happy endings.. I think It gives me sum hope that everything is gonna b jst fine in my life.
I took 2 hrs off my study tym to watch it and now my head hurts..still have to so work.. Nurofen mehn..can't dull it.. I so wanna download d soundtrack..of which I'm downloading the movie..its gonna b lyk ps I love u.. Omgosh.. I love that movie.. I've had it on my laptop since undergrad.. N its nt goin newhere..I still watch it..can't get ova it.. D guy was too hot..n dey loved themselves silly.. I cried for that movie too... So imagine d drama I displayd when I was watching titanic.. Lool..u wuld have thot I knew them personally..
Party 2nyt o..can't go..stuck indoors wiv work..wuld b highly unserious of me to step out of my room today..
Spoke to my mummy today :).. N guess wat my new i-touch jst got in..I'm ashamed to say this is my 3rd i-touch n 5th ipod..
Its neva my fault..except for my second ipod.. N ribena poured in my bag.. It so wasn't my fault..nyz..ipod is here ..happy but I dnt have tym to put songs in it...too much work.. I miss my old one.. Atlst I'm happy..I backed up my old one so all my notes r nt missing.. It would have been really sad..
Wanna do 4 hrs straight then take a 2/3 hour nap.. Get up n continue my work.. God help me..its almost 6.. Time to do this ish...♥ ♡
Omobonike..xxx
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I took 2 hrs off my study tym to watch it and now my head hurts..still have to so work.. Nurofen mehn..can't dull it.. I so wanna download d soundtrack..of which I'm downloading the movie..its gonna b lyk ps I love u.. Omgosh.. I love that movie.. I've had it on my laptop since undergrad.. N its nt goin newhere..I still watch it..can't get ova it.. D guy was too hot..n dey loved themselves silly.. I cried for that movie too... So imagine d drama I displayd when I was watching titanic.. Lool..u wuld have thot I knew them personally..
Party 2nyt o..can't go..stuck indoors wiv work..wuld b highly unserious of me to step out of my room today..
Spoke to my mummy today :).. N guess wat my new i-touch jst got in..I'm ashamed to say this is my 3rd i-touch n 5th ipod..
Its neva my fault..except for my second ipod.. N ribena poured in my bag.. It so wasn't my fault..nyz..ipod is here ..happy but I dnt have tym to put songs in it...too much work.. I miss my old one.. Atlst I'm happy..I backed up my old one so all my notes r nt missing.. It would have been really sad..
Wanna do 4 hrs straight then take a 2/3 hour nap.. Get up n continue my work.. God help me..its almost 6.. Time to do this ish...♥ ♡
Omobonike..xxx
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