Blank

I feel empty.. Seriously, and I find it amusing. I dunno , mayb I expect a bit too much from people..
I really need to know when certain things you think you need are a bit over the top. Maybe I've been spoilt by my previous boyfriends .. That's the only reasonable answer I can give myself for expecting so much.
I really do try and not compare peeps.. So..I'm not comparing here.

Another reason..maybe I'm too attached.. I don't get myself.. When did I become like this.. Needy !!.. Arghhh..now that's BS!. But if I said I didn't need any1 would that make me a bad person? Lol.. I sound confused :(

*sigh*..I wanna cry. Mayb I should, it would help . But I need a reason to cry, so I don't feel like I'm such a baby. Maybe I should slap myself.. Lolz. I don't know why I'm being so silly. I'm actually worried about .....what. Is it n I'm worried about. Truthfully, I have no idea.

I just feel BLANK!
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Is love enough?

I've often wondered if loving someone was all u needed to make a r/ship work. In most of the examples I've heard/seen.. It often is. Most times, some1 stopped loving or they both stopped. And that's how the problem started.

Nyz, I love my "Mr".... but lately i've been asking myself this question..is love enough?, what happens wen love stops being enough ..you fall back on frndship,ryt,
I dnt think I have that with my boo anymore.. Between work, acca, and frnds, I dnt know where I come in his life anymore. B4 we started dating as always I got ?'s from him every time, he used to call me. I'm not a needy gf so it dsnt bother me that the calls have reduced .... all I need to know is that he loves me. Which he tells me ALL the time. So yeah I know he loves me. Mayb I should say used to love me cuz I hvnt spoken to him in 3/4 days.

So now, I claim I love him..he claims he loves me and we rnt talking..love is definitely not enough.
I was sad for a bit..me being me, cried a little, but then I remembered...

God loves me too much to let anything bad happen to me and so I won't let all these things make me sad...

Omobonike..xx
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SAD

I'm sad, I'm so freaking SAD!!!!
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100 Things to be thankful for

Anyone who knows me would agree this has probably been my toughest year ever.. From broken relationships to heart breaks..It’s amazing, i had no idea I was this strong and I had the ability to go through all this and still be happy right now. I really never want to go through all that again. But still there are so many things to be grateful for this year and that’s what this post is about.. The other 100 things that made me happy..This are the first 25, in no particular order  

1)      God’s love for me, it’s amazing.

2)      My mummy, she is always there..

3)      My siblings..esp Dami and ademilola, I never realised how much they had my back till stuff happened this year and Dami helped , while Ademilola jst listened. Og I love you too, only one person calls me OYINDA MY LOVE J

4)      Finishing Grad school.

5)      My friends.. they are the best. I love all my friends

6)      My life

7)      My body..yea, I know..not a size 10 yet ..but I’m happy

8)      Lol..I finally learnt how to cook

9)      I’m not such a baby anymore..lol..hmm, not so sure about that

10)   I don’t hate my dad anymore

11)   All the Nigerian authors that made my year

12)   My appendicitis scar...its still sexy  , hehehehehe

13)   Last year I had pneumonia.. I wasn’t ill this year

14)   I’m not so angry anymore..im a happy bunny

15)   The new friends I’ve made this year

16)   My small apartment ...some people are homeless

17)   My Ipod...lol(it wasn’t stolen this year ..unlike last yrL)

18)   My random thoughts

19)   My ability to see the good side of every1

20)   All the great sale deals

21)   X-factor

22)   Ice cream

23)   Cake from Patisserie Valerie

24)   Music from Gidilounge and notjustok .. I don’t know what I’ll have done this year with those websites

25)   Snow..lol, (my Pastor said we should be thankful for snow)

Omobonike..xx

What is our deepest fear ??

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.—Marianne Williamson


This just became my favorite poem.. Sorry Adaudo,  it beats Rejoice by Gladys Casely-Hayford. Omg!!! I loved that poem in Jss1 . I just hope I got her name right. So anyways I've been thinking about what the whole poem means to me.

I wonder what my greatest fear is.. lol. I actually know, I don't think i'll be sharing that though. So I feel funny, really funny. *sigh* lips sealed ... soon .

I don't miss me anymore. I'm fine.. not so fine but good enough I guess. I need to write...not today jor..I'm exhausted ...xx

I miss me

How long do I have to wait until I finally feel like me once more. I'm tired, been waiting for so long. Suddenly when every thing feels so good I start feeling crappy once more. Mayb its cuz I'm alwyz alone, I have lots of time to think about very silly things. I've been getting into moods lately , like I'm always jst angry, moody, upset and half of the time I want to cry. how sad..lol.

I'm happy too ( sometimes), I should be happy everyday . I'm such an ungrateful child. God I'm sorry, I'll stop whinning ryt now. I'm grateful for everything u've done. :)

*sigh*..that's over..innit?. Ok, so now.. Y I'm I always hungry. This isn't just fair. Its 3:12 am.. Can't sleep as usual but its alryt . I really dnt mind. Mayb I should sleep.. So atlst I won't keep eating. I'm scared. I dunno why, that's the scary part. I jst feel.....hmmm

I dunno jor.. Lemme stop talking gibberish .I'm going to sleep.. Goodmorning .

Omobonike.xx
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Dear ....

Weird , I'm writing about you. Last time though, I can't believe i'm even bothering . I got tired a while ago you know, kept hanging on cause apparently you needed us to be 'friends' .. I told you , it was never a good idea. You have a girlfrnd , so many things would have been wrong . I'm so happy I didnt go back to Nigeria in september.. Gosh, the drama would have been amazing . I find it hard to believe I actually got over you, *eyes rolling* .. told u , time changes everything.

Deimy says its my fault, I let you have your way for so long.. listened to all your rubbish . I find it hard to believe I'm not upset. Its so strange, my mum has always told me there isn't just one person for you. I'm happy I met you though, I've learnt so much . its unbelievable .. so thank you.

 
 #NOTE , If you ever see me , don't say wsup. I'll ignore you :). I don't hate you. We just cant be friends .


omobonike..xxx