Moving on..

Apparently I need to be spanked, my friend decided the remedy for all my drama is " Good lashing with koboko". yea, she isn't nice. But I love her, she still loves me and listens to all my worries. Anyways people I've done it again.

I wonder why I feel the need to plan everything around me. Sadly it didn't work out, obviously it was my fault again. I told him I couldn't do it. I had told him that from the first day I saw him after waiting for like 2 months to finally meet him..*sigh*. please if you find anyone worse than me let me know. I'll b happy to meet her, sorry for digressing . Yesterday was the finally straw, I think he had spent all week deciding whether or not to chill and finally coming to the realization that I would indeed dull his paroles he gave me a ultimatum , it was either i liked him and wanted to b in relationship or i didn't . he didn't even let me answer just said it was obvious i didn't feel they same way he did so I shouldn't bother. My guess , he has some new kele that is giving him good loving.. lolz.

Well I'm happy for him, Its so much easier that this is happening at least there would be no heart break for me next year.  I'm right back to where I started , where I want to be . I'm not ready , by December I might be. I'm not promising you anything but hopefully sha. Please pray for me least I become a victim of my mothers endless efforts to set me up with any guy. Thats just wrong by the way. I will miss him though . But mehn, life goes on.

So Mr V and I talk now, we've stopped fighting. We had some massive fight about 3 weeks ago ( our longest argument ) anyways we are back to being friends and all. Don't worry nothing for Mr V, theres no way I can like him that much again. For all of you that don't know he has a gf and yes I still don't have a bf ( bbm angry smiley ). Imagine !!! . Actually thats my fault so lets not dwell on that. I'm home alone :D.. and i'm happy. I'm going to sleep ryt now though. I just became really tired. I'll continue tomorrow :*..xx

Omobonike..xxx

To love or not to love??

Several times I've found myself in this dilemma.. Should I take the leap?? Get a boyfriend, settle down , stop being confused. I think this is one of the hardest decisions we have to make in life. When you realize he is the perfect one for you. I've missed one, I'm not so sure I missed it because I think if its suppose to be it will be and it wasn't . That means it wasn't right for me. I just thought it was.

I've learnt atý lot from that r/ship. I don't think I should be with anyone . I'm too caught up in my life..is that selfish??. Yes , it is and I don't care . But @ the same time I'm sad or lonely. I miss the days wen I could hardly wait to tell my bf what had happened. The stupid fights we had all because he ignored my pings , only to realize he had been in a meeting or was driving. And my refusal to say sorry.. :p. As much as I want that with someone else I don't think I'm ready. I thought I was, I really did. Until I started comparing the different suitors with my ex. My ex had alwyz done things differently, I can't understand why they just don't understand me. I can't b rushed, I do things when I want to . Its not my fault. If you try, I'll runaway. I watched the runaway bride recently and I have been comparing myself with the babe.. Except I runaway from boyfriends. My friends see it in a different light. They say I'm unable to commit. Yes I agree, I have commitment problems. But don't u think coming from a broken home where my parents separated when I was 4 and the first person I ever really loved left me broken hearted I'm allowed to be . Especially when it comes to choosing my next boyfriend . Well.. I think I am.. If u don't. U can lyk to go and hug an electric pole. Kmt!!!

What to do???? I've asked myself that question over and over again.. *sigh* I need to pray.
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I'm......

Its funny how music inspires me to blog. I'm listening to P-squares song " e no easy" . the lyrics of the song make so much song . "Even if you no get money , dey jolly dey shake body.. when u fall u go stand up again."...lol. I heard this song along time ago just in case you were wondering. I think it applies to my life at the moment. I'm learning how to be more than grateful to God for the endless miracles he performs in my life every day. A lot of this miracles I don't acknowledge not because I'm ungrateful but there are so many things in life we think its our right for some weird reasons . I get unhappy when I realise I'm being taken for granted . Imagine how many times we've all taken God for granted .. wow.  He is always there you know, ready to take you back . Most especially ready to take me back :) . I love GOD.

I learnt something in church today. A while ago, I drifted away from God. I did some things I would always regret and I found it extremely hard to believe that God was willing to forgive me. While at church today I learnt that guilt is the devils weapon of trying to remind you about what God has already forgotten and immediately I said to myself.. WORD !!. So every time that stupid voice comes into my head and starts chatting rubbish i'm so going to ignore .

My friend asked me a question yesterday..lol. He was like that why do we need to pray for miracles when sometimes God answers our miracles without us asking. I told him what I had been taught in church. God is committed to meeting all our needs according to his riches in glory . We need to understand this part, Our need might not be Gods desires for us. The fact that we turn our desires into a need does not mean its gonna happen. God is not obligated to meet any desire we turn into a need . I've taken this seriously and like I always tell people . I believe God loves me so much , he'll never let anything happen to me. Sorry thats how I view my life :). So each time I get disappointed, I believe God knew about it and wanted it to happen because he is preparing me for something greater .

Omobonike..xx

#Np: Over the moon- Dr sid

Te Amo

I know right, weird title . Its not exactly my fault , I was listening to the song when I decided it was time for another post . You know how I hardly ever blog even though I have so much to say. Tonight was good you know, had a long chat with one of my  close friends and she made me re-think about what I'm doing and the various emotions that were running through my head. Yea, I told her everything so she was able to properly analyse the situation . So I'm happy :) , you know sometimes I get so uncertain about my future maybe I should finally get a tattoo of  Matthew 6:25 may be I would b able to remember what that verse says all the time .  I'll pass , not a huge fan of those..its so not nice.

I love my mummy so much, when I think about how much she has sacrificed for me  it makes me wanna cry. I think I'm over hating my dad, there is no point. it still doesn't change the fact that I'm a tribalist that one is here to stay until I meet another nice yoruba boy. I only know one and he is my bestie , I have this weird feeling he is just nice to me cuz we've been friends since second sch..*shrugs* I don't care I still love him silly you know.. :D . he hardly ever gives me advice but when he does its always on point.  I passed on an offer from Phb , isn't that weird and I didn't even have to think about it. I just said no .. wow , time really does change a lot of things you know.  Of which my friend is coming in sept ..yay :D ..We are gonna have so much fun. Who knows I might even come out of retirement and start clubbing once more..

Big ups 2 my sis.,,She is now a lawyer . Now dont you all agree with me that it is time for her to go and marry .. he he. Ahn ahn , she can lyk to chill a bit on school. But I think my sister loves school..lol. unlike me. cant wait to b done mehn. I really am tired. So the fact that Bib is coming in sept is a reality...hmm U kno how it was a 50% chance, its now 100..lol. So now I'm a bit nervous. lol y I'm I writing about this. Just so you kno I worry about everything and anything, my mum says it keeps me busy ..lol. and if I dont have anything to worry about, i'll worry for my family and friends.. smh !!!

My bestie has gone to naija,, so sad u know. I'll survive, my other bestie would soon be here so i'll be alright . I love drake , I think he is the best thing since sliced bread...lol. i think the same way about so many other things.awww..my fave song just came up on my playlist.  *huge smile*..xx

Omobonike

#np: doesnt mean anything- Alicia Keys 

p.s .. its not my fav song, just a song i really like.. I love the whole album.

#random

I jst had my bath.. N now I back to the same couch I've been sitting on since I woke up.. Jst so u kno.. I slept on this couch 2.. :p .. Yea big deal.. Funny I love sleeping on the couch.. When I was home this easter..my mum was actually worried that something was wrong with me..I'd go n sleep on the couch downstairs..believe me that couch is 2 comfy..now I've been banned..loool..kmt !!! O well.. I jst pray she'll want to change them one day so I can move it permanently 2 my room... Shet !!! Derz no space :( .. My sister should do n get married jor.. That room isn't big enough for both of us...I jst spoke to my mum and as usual she made me happy.. I wasn't sad or upset.. My feelings were just blank..couldn't feel nething..for a second I hoped I'll cry.. I think I kno wats wrong.. I'm nt goin to tell.. I dnt want to admit it to myself....nyz, I'm good now.. Goin to chew gum n do sumwork.. Serlzly ..I've never met ne1 apart frm me that derives so much pleasure in chewing gum...funny gum keeps me frm eating junk....its usually the other way around for most pple ..but for me.. Gum is my knight in shinning armour.. So I have this gr8 bk.. " Who fears death" nnedi okorafor...n the sad thing is that I can't read it... I wanna scream.. I hate school..lol..no I dnt I jst wanna b done.. So my mummy can b proud..she has alwyz been but I wanna make her extra proud.. That neva hurts does it??Ha ha.. Today while doin a little bit of fb gossip I came across a babe who had over 5000 frnds on her page..guess y....in most of her pics she was half naked.. N den most of the wall posts she had .. Had to do wiv pple leaving their numbers for her 2 call them... That's y I love fb.. Things lyk this r so hilarious.. Twitter has nufin on this ish.. Nyz... I got a fb message ..its 2 funny.. Jst so u kno ..I dnt kno who this person is.. "I know I can't give you the whole world, but I can promise you I will always love you. My heart is yours, and even though I know I'll make mistakes, I will never break your heart. I'll be right beside you as we chase our dreams together, and you will never have to wonder if I still care. I think about you all day long and when I'm not near you my mind is consumed with thoughts of being close to you again. When you're near me I feel like everything in the world is right, and I know I don't have to ask God for anything because as long I have you in my life I have everything I could ever want. All I want to do is spend the rest of my life making you as happy as you have made me. I know you might already have someone else, but if you do, I hope that he feels the same way I feel because that's what you deserve. "Lol..that's d message urs truly got frm sum1.. I think this is the funniest message I've read in a while..if I actually knew him.. I would have said "awww"..but I don't..Nyz, I'm bored..and I have so much work to do..imagine.. Silly me..Omobonike ​♥ ♡ ...xx#np..te amo-rihanna

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New phase

I've been cheating on the whole idea of blogging.. Dunno y.. N I have so much 2 tell :(.. Nyz, my life is gettin better.. :)
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Imagine, Mr V forgot 2 call me on my b'day.. Is there ne reason y I should still b frnds wiv him.. Real frnds dnt do stuff lyk that.. I was so hurt u kno.. I cried..how could he have forgottn..n now I dnt even wanna tlk to him again..as in I'm done. He has finally ruined our friendship..derz no excuse in this world..it wouldn't b enough. After all we've been thru that's the best he could do.. He might jst have said babes I dnt wanna be your friend.. Fi mi le..cuz believe me that's wat I got from wat he did.. As if I was forcing us 2 b frnds.. Who needs fake frnds.. N now he is apologising.. I'm nt even upset, I jst dnt have nething to say 2 him..I'm done..it took a while but I'm finally der n derz no goin back . I'm so happy here...nyz, I dnt think I'm being mean.. I think he is gettin excatly wat he deserves..u dnt tret a person lyk shit n expect the person to treat u like a prince...nyz, lyk I said its all good.
Now I kno y I dnt blog for long , I start feeling guilty about my sch work.. Gt2go , have a lovely wkend.
Omobonike ‎​♥ ♡ ...xxx

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My birthday !!

Lol.. 15 mins before my birthday.. I started crying..I was sad and angry..I wish I could turn back the hands of tym 2 last year.. I would have done so many things differently.. That's all I've wished for since I startd this year..nyz, so the bbm's n d facebook messages start coming in.. N I'm still sad.. Pple putting up my pic on bb ..n dedicating their status 2 me.. Lol.. I had startd smiling by then n 1or 2 pple call me n I dnt feel bad nemore.. May still a little sad.. But definately not angry. Lol..yup.. My bbm n facebk are back.. :(.. I'm controlling it now sha.. Thank God

I just realised this is a beginning of a new year for me.. God kept me 2 see this day so I could start afresh..lol.. God tlks to me, I kno he does..the calm voice I hear in my mind tellin me its gonna b alryt.. Some tyms I wonder y me, I hvnt been 'it' recently . When he tells me the plans he has for me.. If only I can submit 2 him totally.. N I wonder if he really is tlking to me.. Bt I'm jst gettin it.. Even though I can't go back to last year.. God jst gave me a fresh start..lol.. Dis suden realisation makes me wanna cry..I heard it so clearly.. "Its a new year, new beginning"..I'm so happy ..at least I get another chance 2 b truly happy.. :)

So 2day, I'm gonna go out wiv frnds and celebrate the fresh start God has given me.. :D . I'll tell u how my day went later on..

Omobonike ‎​♥ ♡ ..xx

#np: lucky- jason mraz
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